Anger, Mind, And Thoughts Poem by rickey sims

What ever I said, I take it back.
I hate this feeling, most things in my life I lack.
Writing my thoughts for everyone to read, with no shame in my brain.
You said all you did was love me but it wasn’t they way I needed to be loved.
Now I’m on my own and there’s no fear on my eyes.
My mind is scattered, thoughts running rapidly, non-stop, uncontrollably.
Not seeking help time to do things one my own,
I would rather fail by myself than succeed with your help.
The only problem with that is,
I’m still being treated like a child and it’s starting to get to me,
one day I will snap and it won’t be pretty.
On the other hand, there is no other hand!
It is what it is but it’s not what you made it out to be.
This is my reality, my life, my destiny, my choices not yours so stay out.
You turn a great day into a terrible one;
I tried to avoid the conflict, problems, all the conversations but I knew one day it would all catch up and last night it did just as it planned to do.
Evil intentions I suppress my anger is limitless I can hardly control it.
You will never feel the way I feel and felt.
Only seventeen but I feel the world is out to get me,
trusting in no one but always believing in my mother.
I don’t know what I would do without her, spending my life preparing for her death.
I know I’ll never reach that point I can never brace for her passing,
I know I will miss you very much.
I have a lot to say only if you would’ve paid attention you would’ve heard my voice.
The elephant in the room has just been exposed.
Just for you “DAD”, no longer in my heart.

October 27,2011