Angry Words Poem by Butterflies In My Belly Forever

In the beginning I let you know,
About angry words, and how deep they go.
And what it meant to me that they not be said.
As the anger in your heart began to show,
Your words got meaner and this I know.
Anything you could think of to say and hurt me,
If I gave you no response,
You would come up with another thought...
My mistakes I made you slapped me with…
But that was only the beginning.
You begged and begged to let you in.
To let my heart and your heart be forever friends,
To lean on you when I was covered in pain,
Storm clouds all around me and pouring rain.
So I did as you asked me,
I let you in,
That is where the danger did begin.
My mother was dying and you did not care.
My burden was heavy,
My heart in swollen despair.
Though your love took me places I never knew,
Your temper and angry words beat me black and blue.
In the beginning I would not participate,
I warned you about those angry words,
I told you they breed hate.
But everytime I did not react,
You searched deeper, found something to attack.
You even used my dying mom,
When you missed work and how come?
To be there for me you say,
Your words are hollow now and that is how it will stay.
The lines of love have been broken.
With your wicked tongue and the words I've spoken.
You knew you took me back to memories I did not want to go.
I cried and begged to you on the phone,
I thought you got it then,
Little did I know…
It only got worse as you felt me slipping away,
That is why I am not here today.
You are forever embedded in my heart,
But so is the pain and that will never part.
I am sorry it has to be this way,
Maybe we will both change one day.