Aspie Life Poem by Kevin Patrick

My smiles manufactured to make you feel safe
I radiate false amity to lure you as bait
So, when you let me in, I've got a free buffet
Gulping down your pride is as good as Child's play


I read my interactions, with others, from a script
Playing Mr. "Nice Guy" though my coolness is ill Equipped
To care about the things that others hold with praise
Like statues, wealth, or sport in the rat race of this maze


My affability is armor for instinctual survival
Civility's a conceit to placate all my rivals
Everyday I greet the world with programmed cheerfulness
But understand it's just a truce of social Armistice



I camouflage my anger in mask of false composure
My nerves are always shellshocked to constant over exposure
I trade my self-respect for a crippling neurosis
To prove that I am Human, I grow an anxious fueled Cirrhosis


I conscript myself to torture just by being in your presence
Most times I'd like to be alone away from your putrescence
I'm a walking human time bomb who's ticking down to doom
At times I want eviscerate everyone inside a room

I've been trained to tell lies, by my mother to stay alive
Cause the truth is a noose that will drive you down to nosedive
Im stuck inside a game that I never asked to play And all I want to do is drown in sleep and slip away