Before I Knew Poem by Amanda Nelson

I don't know what to say
I used to be happy
I guess I thought you meant something to me.

It was all a lie.
A secret that you kept inside.
Something you never told.
Now it all unfolds.

You lead me on.
But you were wrong
to leave me hanging.
Your plan didn't work.
I realize now, you were just a jerk.

You twist my words.
Spit them out.
Change them into something.
And make me doubt.

Now, I don't know what to say.
You're looking at me expectantly.
I just know I used to be happy.
Before you came 'round.
I guess I thought I meant something to you.
Just a little bit.
Now, you're pleading that I do.
I might've believed that back then,
before I knew.