Bitter Betrayal Poem by Ralston Senn

I thought i had, the very true love.
But darling now, I'm just a lost dove.

All i want is to start loving again.
But how, when disgust keeps coming again?

I tried really hard, I tried my very best.
I gave you my all, and now there's nothing left.

You stole my heart, broke it too.
You think we're bent, but we're broken in two.

Caught in between, this painful decease;
when will I be free, for this pain to decrease?

I'm living in the present, haunted by the past;
not knowing what I'll lose, not knowing what will last.

Blinded by fear, drowning in doubt,
struggling to see, if there's a way out.

You tell me now, if there a way out.
Or you want me to suffer all throughout?

With bitter betrayal I've been fed.
Is this my destiny until I'm dead?

If not now, then when will it be?
Maybe later on, when I'll die peacefully.

But how can i die, peacefully;
when I've been betrayed disgracefully?

We can try to change the past, that I’m not sure.
But my beating heart may bleed out, and that’s for sure.

You tell me to forget, and you cut my wing;
but how can you expect me to fly without failing?

Then what will i do, i am yet to know.
So until then.. I really do not know..

What's this life, which i did not reserve?
When will i get what i truly deserve?