Bleeding To Comprehend Poem by neo riddick

It's easier to run
So I go
I cut so deep. It felt so good
No one would ever understand. So....
Take my pain, and just burn me, blind me with the sun
What am I do?
I loved
I lost
I loved
I was disposed of
Can anyone hear my screams?
Does anyone know my pain
My mind is on overload. All thats left is steam
I had to cut just to know I am alive. Is that so damn insane
My head is hurting
Mentally and physically all I know is torture and self inflicted pain
Begging for help doesn't work
No one ever really cares
Now I must wake and deprive myself for 19 hours without food
I must suffer. Without absolute pain. I am no Good
I have nothing to gain.
All I know is pain
Listen
Do you hear that?
It's the sound of my heart breaking
Do you see the blood pouring from my arms?
That my dear is just my own evil web of self harm.
Sick and twisted it may seem to all.
While the world is off dancing under a moonlit ball
Here I am Bleeding to Comprehend