Calamity Poem by Justin Reamer

Oh, what pain lurks within my heart
As darkness shrouds over my mind
And clings to the very brink of my existence.
How I cannot see clearly,
How everything seems dark and bleak,
And how my heart beats painfully within my chest.

What am I to do? What shall I try?
It is hard to walk, difficult to speak,
Hard to think, and difficult to even breathe.
I choke on my words as I begin to speak,
My breath is short and uneven,
My balance is ungraceful and
My mobility awkward and languid,
And my thoughts are random and unfocused.
I cannot seem to exist,
For darkness looms in me,
And my convalescence has not yet begun,
My invalescence thus gone, vanished.

Oh, how I wish I could vanish,
For as this bittersweet tear falls down my cheek,
I always beg and supplicate to the Divine Being
Who created me, for evil was done to me,
Something I repressed for years,
But to the man was it committed,
And to the man it was unleashed.
Shame does not exist in his eyes,
But I suffer nonetheless.

God, please help me,
I feel that I am losing at life!
Please help me!
Oh, how I wish I could disappear,
For I feel disgusting and grotesque-
The pain is so unbearable.
Tears gush down my face,
And shivers travel down my spine.
Darkness is all over me,
Bleakness all around,
And I sit here, in despair,
Never to smile again.