Can Not Cry Poem by vivian pena

As i sit here bitting my lip, a distant
memory comes to mind, something
is missing that I can not find.
My day's in here are cold and gray but
still I have to stay and pay.
Why is it that I can not cry? could it be that I
have to much pride? or is it because I have already
faced a situation like this? Or could it be there is
something or someone that I miss?
I just wish I can feel a mother's warm embrace
or a gentle touch. It has been a while since I have
been loved.
I feel as though there is no way I can get over my past.,
every time I think about it I smile and I laugh.
Because I can not cry.
It seem's like the harder I try not to cry, the more tear's
seem to drip even harder from my eye's. You can not
see them, dripping from my face, they are invisible,
they have no trace.
What are god's intention's?
What is the purpose of my life?
Eighter way it dosen't matter because I
will alway's be lonley, depressed and sad.
And still I will not cry.



Vivian Pena