Change Poem by Gee Cii Schnider

Why did I have to turn this way
What made me change
Why can't I go back
to the carefree everything I used to be
Why am I so lost not even knowing the real me
Why can't I go back to the days...
When I would try my best at everyting
Not care what anyone says or thinks
I could be myself and I would know
who I was
I wasn't last, alone, and confused
I could cry when I wanted
because you were there to protect
the foolish me
I didn't have to crumble from the pain
you caused within me
I didn't always want to be free
I wouldn't hide the real me, whatever it is
Life just had to corrupt me
Life had to pull me down
It's almost heart breaking thinking
of what I've become
Why does this have to be me
writting these words
Why did I become this uselessness
The one who can't smile or cry
The one who hold back these tears
that want to take my life away
Why did this happen
Why can't I be the same as I was

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