Character In A Book Poem by Karen Amador

'I'm just a termite in an ant hill' ~ Stephanie Meyer


i wish i were a character in a book
it's hard enough to be blamed
hard enough to go on
hard enough i no longer want to
write my story
i feel like the lover who won't be
loved
the one to justify
and won't be just
the one to try and not given
a chance
the one to give and be hurt
that is why i write
that is why i read
it's no talent
it's just some habit i have to keep me in it's words
in it's story
just like cutting
no skill
just a simple habit that lets me release this pain
how come their stories have happy endings?
you know the ones full of love
and just, and maybe chances and no pain.
why am i who i am?
i'm not special
and they are right i'm not
'i'm just a termite in an ant hill'
trying to blend in and trying to understand
Nothing lasts forever.
i'm just a character out of a book.
made up
and not real