Some times it gets so cold in the morning,
and even the early mornings aren't beautiful any more.
It's how the coldness comes without warning,
and i feel colder each moment than the moment before.
And at night when i'm wide awake,
i feel like i can't move from my place.
I ask god to have mercy for any sake,
to have mercy on me and my weary face.
Tears freeze me and all around me,
till i can't move at all and still i cry.
Wishing that at a moment i'd be free,
but salvation has gone saying goodbye.
This heart loved deeply, it's true,
yes, i've loved and loved till no love is left.
I sacrifised all i had just for you,
and they say that the goodness of my heart is a gift.
That's what you lost and you'll never regain,
i know this for sure, you'll never find such love.
Some day you'll be lost in your life again,
but i won't be there for you, i've had enough.
You never told me, you never loved me back,
i remember your promises, i had that right.
I had the right to go down that road and never go back,
and you were all mine, just in my own sight.
I know i've hurt so many hearts before,
but i really didn't mean to, is it how you feel for me?
I've had enough, i can't take it any more,
that feeling i've felt for them can't be felt for me.
That's when i feel so cold knowing i've lost all,
seeing you and get torn apart, isn't just it.
It's how i wish to stand after that fall,
though i know i can't and i see you about to forget.
And i see you forgetting and i know you're over me,
getting shattered and i couldn't get my self together.
Then that hard coldness get all over me,
and i lose hope when i feel it'll last till forever.
Forever to me now is not growing older,
with you in so much love and devotion.
It's a constant feeling of getting colder,
like drowning in frozen and a dark ocean.
No wishing comes true upon any star,
not in loving you and not for you being the one i hold.
I've lost hope and it's mercyful that's it's far,
maybe it's a good way to live, growing old, feeling cold..
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem