Come Back Poem by Raheem Lyttle Kiyaga

Neva thought that one day life will be like tis,
Its like a nightmare that I thought
wud go away,
At my innocent age, I cudn't guess wat
Really went wrong,
That made u to split up.
In minds I had it that u
Wud turn back asap
But I just realised it was all inception,
Days turned into weeks,
And weeks turned into yrs.
U neva showed up for my birthdays,
And I can't hesistate to say
I neva had a mother's love.
I beef what u did and I
Regret so much why I was born,
Now I lay awake in bed
With thoughts of u in my head,
As I look out the window on tis sunny day,
Seeing a woman holding a little boy's hand,
Who looks to be a mother and her son,
I believe I am just a monster or a robot
That's and will neva feel as they're.
I guess u say ' I hate u ',
Yeah, u're true but I say,
I love u mama.
Tho' its a different and painful life,
Full of qns and I can't help to
Ask u some, 'Cuz I'm hurting too;
Weren't we good enough for u?
Do u know that dad's life went down
'Cuz of u?
How old am I?
Did u swore neva to leave my dad?
Tho' I'm having many dreams,
And I'm looking forward to myfuture,
But I'm still trapped within my past.
Like flying water in the air, my eyes fill up.
Pouring drizzles after drizzles,
Imagining how u packed ur bags
Leaving us backwards!
Dad, Salim, Braidah, Liana,
Miss u, even tho' got familiar to it,
They still love and want u back.
But I, its still hurting me too,
We haven't toasted to the good life.
The beards on my chin marks
That I still have some growing up to do,
It'd be a lurk to tell u
When and how many birthdays
I'm celebrating and I've celebrated,
Tho' u never showed up for
My fake birthdays,
But I always hope u might.
I miss the sound of yo' voice
Mama, Can u please say sth?
I guess if u don't, its ur choice,
But I hate u for what u done,
U put tears in siblings' eyes,
And make me bleed it into thispiece,
I think of many things about u
Mama,
And I cud tell somehow
That even though u've kept silence amongst us,
I did and do love u all the same,
And I only wish u cud COME BACK mama.