Comfortably Tainted Poem by Jon Edward Walker

did I forgive you?
if I did I didn’t mean to
if I was nice it wasn’t purposeful
maybe I was drunk
the times I said something kind
after I do what I’m about to
I hope you don’t forget
your love is blind

yours but not mine
you must earn my love
yet still you’ll lose it quickly
because I can’t stand you
which
is why I want you near me.
so I can abuse
and feel guilty
about the love you give me
to keep me
unsure
and empty,
insecure
and lonely
where I can be
comfortable.