Confuse Me Poem by alexandria belle cabilida

Is it okay if i said that 'i don't know the girl in me? '
Sometimes i acted so weird and i felt dismay
I hurt their heart and don't know why i did that?
Is it me, who i thought i am, that i am that?
Or i'm just assuming that i know myself as a fact?

why is it i never know myself so well?
I can't stand my decisions and my will.
I even get caught in the middle between what i said and what i feel
Why i can't seem to make myself clear
When everybody is asking me what will i feel..?

Am I not me, as what i thought as me?
or i'm just to mindful of what people will say?
Am I that bad enough to lie what is real?
Is it enough to say that it's not my own will..?
How am i supposed to make u understand what i feel?

I don't know if anybody can tell who am i..
Can u tell me how i feel while I cry?
Isn't it weird, if i ask someone to hurt me?
Because i know when i cry i am ME.

I can't tell when i will be Happy.
I can't even tell what makes me feel that way.
Who am I and who I want myself to be..?
I'm so Lonely and i need to know why i should be..
I'm confuse can't you see, Can You help me?