Confusion, Suffer, Changes Poem by Victoria Korobochka

I'm lost and confused,
My life is breaking loose.
I'm dying inside
Whilst everything is crashing upon my life.
My friends don't understand me.
I'm useless in this game,
I'm hurting everyone around me,
But the pain doesn't go away.
I know you're there for me
When I think of you.
You're doing everything to save me,
I know what you are going through.
I know that I am weak,
People crush me if they want to,
But I don't want them to feel the blame,
The blame that I am giving them.

You're telling me to leave her,
You tell me she's not my friend,
But I can't stereotype her actions,
I can't stereotype who she is.

You tell me he's unfair,
He shoves the blame on you,
You're telling me it's not your fault,
By admitting that you hate him.

I'm chained to the ground,
My face buried in my hands,
I'll be stuck like this forever
Unless I choose a pathway.
My family doesn't trust me
Because I broke their hearts,
By telling the false truth,
By telling them the lies.
I'm choosing life at home,
I'm choosing life at school,
I'm choosing friends I want to be with,
I'm choosing...
I'm choosing...
I'm choosing...
But I still can't choose.