Consequences Poem by Airda Jones

I've been crying my eyes dry
Since midnight of last night
Hating the surrounding silence
Almost mocking my ruined chance

He was there and so was I
And it would've been easier just to lie
Why couldn't I just fake it?
Now I don't know if I'll ever make it

My confession was out of place
And his shock was clear on his face
But his following empty words
Only made the truth that much worse

Now this night reflects that gloom
Hoping it will swallow me soon
Wishing and pleading whole heartedly
That his 'sorry' wouldn't haunt me

So many tears and so much ache
How much can a soul possibly take?
So much more pain than I have ever known
To finally hear that his answer is no.