Control Poem by Amber Glistener

Life is chaotic,
everything seems to keep running out of my fingers,
jumping to my shoulders,
pulling me off balance.
I need control.

My mind zooms around,
place to place and sends me visions,
the things I see are often vivid,
the dreams I have make me toss and turn.
I need control.

The few friends I have,
sometimes seem to hate me,
dragging me this way and that with dependence,
but running away when I depend on them.
I need control.

My head dizzys from places and things,
and suddenly snaps back into reality,
without a single hint or clue as to when,
but sometimes I wish I could just go back to sleep.
I need control.

I scream out clues and hints,
into a crowd of mutters and hopelessness,
nobody seems to hear me,
they have other things in mind.
I need control.