Crying With Golden Happy Tears Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Crying With Golden Happy Tears



Cried many tears of loneliness
Despaired myself with self-defeat
Dispelled emotions epitomized
In dreary feelings of grief
Biding my own time
For my own self release

That can be taken the wrong way
The right one is to feel better
Holding onto hope the best that I can
With slippery hands, I still hang on

Sick of always being called Mr wrong
When all I do is love
Does that not count for anything?

Then I ask myself
Why should I even care?
Numbing these feelings is so easy to do
Yet, even with pain I dream for pleasure
In dreams at this moment
Way away from my view

Self-confliction
Too many thoughts come through
Why are there no natural courses?
What did I ever do?

Sometimes I feel like a fool
Many times like a stranger to this flesh
My soul seems to feel stuck
Asking itself how much time this skin has left

But in all of that it is not as bad as it seems
Still I envision such beautiful and stunning dreams
Light beyond what I could ever believe
Living long and prosperous
Winning the battle of life
That was self-created
Built by whom? Me

Soon comes the mending
This I truly believe
And the sickness of depression goes away
Leaving little fragments of experiences left over
So I can teach others
To truly love themselves
Creating vast arrays of possibilities
In the positive light
In which they have always had

Too many tears
Many hidden in fact
But I plant to still cry in the future
In the aspect of joy
Of all the peace and prosperity
That I truly have all from within

In the end maybe everything was supposed to happen
To strengthen myself for a long glorious run in life
This soul has to love this body of mine
So they can both shine as one

Been down way too many times
Now I realize there is now only up
Where shall I go from this day on?
Growing within like I have never grown before

In the future please implore
Everything will be alright from this moment
And well beyond even that

Crying with golden happy tears
That is what life is all about

Thursday, March 13, 2014
Topic(s) of this poem: love hurts
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Written on 3/13/14
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