Dark Betrayal (8/13/09) Poem by Melissa Leddy

I'm okay with this night being a silent one
I'm finally fine with the peace it brings me
I'm alright though no one is here to talk to
I'm actually glad that no one can see

All this shame that I hold in myself....
It's hidden from the world, but on my mind at all times
It all turns to pain and is replaced by more guilt
Which is a result of all these lies

It's like I'm making an excuse for myself
Like the lies aren't for them, they're for me
As if the pain in his eyes will hurt me more
More hurtful than any lie could ever be.

My betrayal flashes in each mirror I stare at
It screams at me to break it to pieces
Not the mirror, but the soul it reveals
A part of me that I'll never miss.