Dear Lover Poem by Petra Soliman

Every heartache song reminds me of you,
I wish upon all the stars up in the sky each night,
But i'm getting weaker and weaker,
I never realized how weak I am till tonight,
I always try to be strong,
But I can't go on like this anymore,
It's been a year, full of sorrow and happiness at times,
So just do something.

Sometimes when I pray,
I pray for death to overcome me,
And every time i'm close to death,
I taste the sweetest emotions,
And the most tearful fear.
When I die, I want you to throw black roses at me,
I don't want red nor white.

If you would ask me how would I be right now with you,
I would be like a child lying restlessly in your arms,
Weeping, weeping, and weeping,
Because I know you would make everything alright,
But for now, I need to find the healing for my pain,
The pain is almost everywhere everyday,
It gets painful at night, when I need someone by my side,
When my tears are falling...missing you,
You may think whatever you want,
But i'm only saying the truth..
You don't know how much of happiness you bring to me inside when we talk,
And when you say those things,
They make my heart fly,
And make me cry at nights;
If you knew i'm living on music and poetry,
You would be here holding me.
I don't know how long i could survive,
I'm scared of death but I feel it's the only way to be free,
It's either im dying, or leaving this country.