Depression Poem by Scarlett Reid

Wake with a jolt
Where am I?
You feel at peace momentarily
Until, you remember
You feel it, all crashing down on you again
Everything you try so desperately not to feel
To ignore in hopes it might disappear
But that would never happen
Nothing good ever happens to me.

So you push back into the place you have accepted as home, your own
You just think to yourself, if only it was different
If only you didn't have to wake to the pain, agony, sadness
Then maybe the world wouldn't seem so dark...

Maybe for one day you could live like a normal happy person
Instead of who you are, how you feel
Wouldn't that be grand if I didn't have to be me
That would be great, but alas I am who I am

The darkness, the pain inside, the scars.
Feel a bit more distant, not such a painful driving force as before
But they're still there, lurking
I just hope it will go away.
Is that too much to ask?
Drowning.
Falling.
Dying inside, that is my reality.
Life isn't fair.

Some days I feel alright
But at times slight reminder can drive me into that deep dark place
A place I've called home many times
I think if i could just stay truly happy for a day
Then i think i would be okay.

Unfortunately, that day will never come
I'll just spend the rest of my life in my dark lonely place.