Did I See The Rainbow Yesterday? Poem by Kevin Carney

Did I see the rainbow in the sky yesterday?
The storms have ended, the sky lights bright.
The colors all so vivid to see for all so high above.
Dare I take that chance, to tell you what’s in my heart?
So much like the rainbow, so beautiful you end all too quickly.
Do I say it all; regardless of the fears I bear?
Do I tell you the needs I bleed?
I know I have fallen ever so hard…
I think I am afraid to see this to the end...
You sit there amongst it all.
You try to show how brave you can be.
I am not convinced you can carry through.
I see the tears well up behind your eyes.
Beauty you have you just don’t see it.
Confidence, sometimes I see it disappear all too quickly.
So sad I see, you can be like that rainbow in the end…
Give it a chance; look far out into the horizon.
Take a chance on who you are, and what you can be.
Listen to me, I was once the person you seem to be now.
I walked that line of loneliness not knowing what to do.
Eating away at me almost every day…
So cold and uncaring I could be…
Sentenced to a life that I did not want to be in.
I took my days from day to day…
Never knowing what would be.
I climbed the heights of pure frustration…
Wallowing in such deep hate.
I really never wanted to listen or give a damn about myself.
It was who I was and nothing I thought I could do about it.
Destined to a life of anger and failure, did I mention the thoughts of suicide?
So quick with my fists, lashing out never knowing my own rage.
The booze and drugs looking so much to rid me of the pain…
Knowing in the end what a futile attempt this was.
I don’t know what happened….
Something came about, I couldn’t really say what.
Call it fate or say it was destiny…
I sure as hell know it couldn’t go on this way.
Through the mud and slime…
Step by step I climb my way, so hard it was to become who I am today.
I exorcized my ghost and demons; at times they still revisit me.
Could it be like the two of us, do we have a chance together at happiness?
Could it be that maybe one of us will self destruct along the way?
Maybe just maybe we should take that chance.
It still will be a fight day to day…