Did My Feelings Die In Vain? Poem by Oliver Clarke

Suffocating from this grip that you have on me,
The grip is gone but I don’t need my eyes to see,
You were once the only and the biggest part of me,
Now you’re gone I wish my eyes could only see.

Through the whole that u left in my heart,
You knocked me down, right back to the start,
It’s not a race but god if it were,
I’d stop and start before my mind senses fear,
This crippling pain, it’s not physical and it gives me no strain,
But I would take it any day to living life in vain,
I have to look deep, into your eyes,
To see why I made this sacrifice.

It’s my life, and it always will be,
But you once had total control over me,
I wish you still did then my mind would not have think,
About the past, about the future, why there was no link.

I closed my eyes, cried out all my tears,
Boys aren’t suppose to admit their fears,
And I still won’t because it’s not you I fear,
It’s what you did to me and how you made my life so dear.

Words could not explain to the world,
How I felt for you, how I longed for you girl,
I don’t need the earth to live on, as long as you remember my name,
At least maybe then all these feeling didn’t die in vain.