Division In Me (2015) Poem by Shade of Dawn

Evil I do but good I want,
All I try turns to dust,
I thought I had given up,
Given up all to you,
but still too much myself in me?

This division inside,
I am dying yet I live,
resurrected from my sin,
yet buried within my deeds;
condemned by the evil I do,
even thought I want not to,
But still I participate.

Hatred mixed whit love,
Shame mixed whit Grace,
that's clear sense of self;
I loathe sin trying to love myself,
Hatred, shame, Love and Grace;
I failed but I am worthy still,
not by deeds but by grace!
Condemned yet saved,
Undeserved yet I am loved,
The greater sense of self.

Sinner's turned to saints,
Unholy sanctified,
Surely it is insane,
trough the worldly eyes,
something not to comprehend,
yet that kind of God,
I have placed my faith in.