Enough Enough Poem by Sadiqullah Khan

Many thoughts
That comes like waves
And then surf my mind
Many emotions
That deeply touches my heart
The bygone days
Memories of the beloved
Some good deeds
That has enlightened
The dark corners of my heart
Many a soft afternoons
And the evenings
The play of my childhood
Those days of immense delight
The hopes of conquering the world
And exploring every nook and corner
The beloveds lock of hair
And the mysteries in those black eyes
And the misfortunes
Some sad moments
Tied to the fate
From morning till evening
And making a living
Thinking of future
The dark shadows of future
And the fear of loosing my address
On earth
With no cause
And unable to face my children
The philosophy I teach
No more contends them
No religion and no values
For what I speak
Are lies
On the face of reality
And so I think of the rest of humanity
The environment
I know
But here the issues are graver
Than the environment
And last night
On my dinner
In a road side barbeque
I was surrounded with five beggars
Two were young girls
The shadows from the future
And the search for an address
Address of whom
Will any cemetery do the job?
Once I avoided
My address in front of the cemetery
The bitterness of memories
The hardness of the present
And the shadows from the future
All this time
When I loved you
You played with my emotions
By showing me new fantasies
Every day
In your smiles
There was no warmth
In your eyes
There was no love
In your heart
The blood had dried
All your memories
Are my own fantasies
Colored
Like the colorful beings
Of supernatural world
Enough enough
I want to be myself
I am now not deceived
By your smiles and your eyes
Whatever you say now
Is of little importance to me
But I promise you
That I will not tell
Any one
This secrete
That you were just an illusion
And in reality
There was nothing
It was my imagination
That had given you
All these vibrant colors
And I was alone in this struggle
And discovery
Now within my self
I travel up and up
And give names to various stations
As my steps towards you
But in reality
I am what you are
And then there would come
A station by itself
That you will cease to exist
And only I will remain
At the time of annihilation
I will search for an exit
And by that time
Things would move and gather
In such a way
That this process of annihilation
Will look sweet
And less painful
For all the forces of nature
And every one around
With mourning
Would make the exit easier
A rapid flash of memory
That would remain

Breathe fresh air
My heart
For the moment is not far off
That you will struggle
For one breathe in the end
Enough enough
But your love
Was such an illusion