Every Day Poem by Melanie Walendowsky Baker

I do still think of you
every day.
I can't understand, though,
when my heart still frays.

You left me alone,
all this I know.
So it all becomes worse,
and unbearably so.

I know that I am
rational and clear,
of all that has happened,
with you all but sincere.

Yet you're still on my mind,
every single day,
it's hard to forsake
what won't go away.

I keep holding on,
I think that's the case.
But to what I don't know,
and the truth I can't face.

You did what you couldn't,
such a coward you were.
And yet you're still here,
in all of these words.

To forget is too easy,
I could block it all out,
but punishment it is,
when all is in doubt.

I do still think of you,
every day.
You so don't deserve me,
yet I wish you would stay.

(Itajaí - 11 June,2009)