Every Shadow Poem by Wendy Gomez

I talk like someone was there to hear
Sorrow's the only thing by my side
I wish I knew someone so dear
If only you cared I would rid of my lonesome self and glide

I cry like I'm sad
I am sad
I'm depressed like I'm mad
I have faded in the nothingness with the nothing I've ever had

I scream as if I'm dieing
I am a simple creature who is never amused nor with a smile on my tare-away face
And still i don't understand why i'm always crying
I'm a disappointment a miserable excuse and a disgrace

I dream like I had an imagination
I have a mind alright
Maybe not useful but it's there its an abandoned train station
I loose the point in living until I see your sight

I laugh like I'm crazy
I guess I am a psychopath
My hearts giving up or maybe it's just lazy
I've been to hell and back I've followed that path

I worry as if I cared
I try to be perfect but It never seems to be right
I'm a freak and yes I'm still scared
I'm in this misery business blood deep and It's a gory fight

I wonder as If I don't already know
I'm so curious to find something
Something different could it be your heart? Is this love planted? will it grow?
I fear that this love is pure pain to bring

I care as if I loved you
I love you?
Is my heart due?
My heart the wind blew

I drink like I'm thirsty
This is my pain drain called alcohol
It lets me be without any remorse or sorrow
Most of the time if I'm laughing I'm really just asking to leave

There is nothing left to face and a thing left to loose because I am far beyond gone

By Wendy Gomez