Finding Myself Poem by Kaila George

I have been lying dormant for years

The person who I am meant to be

I was forever cowering in my own pain

I hid from the world my shame

Thinking to myself its best they not know

What a horrible person I have become

I believed myself unfit and unclean

To be a part of this earthly world

Scrubbing myself clean till I was raw to the bone

Then anger came…

It filtered through my pain

How dare he lay claim to my soul?

It was a like a slow burning ember

That was fuelled by pure hate

Hatred was never ending

It ate away at my soul

It consumed my essence

Of whom I should have been

I gave up my dreams and hopes

And replaced it with nightmares and horror

And as the most famous quote in the bible says

I have walked through the valley of death

Its dark abyss gave me no hope

I grew weary of my pain

The burdens too much to bare

Desperate to be free of this hell

I then dropped on bended knees

To pray to the lord

And beg for his mercy

It felt like a fire burning inside me

As I felt this warmth start to spread

Within my soul

I cannot explain exactly how it felt

But this warm and peaceful feeling

Has now found its love within me

Contentment is what I feel

Each and every day

And the beauty denied me

Surprises me each day

Nature’s beauty all around us

Is something to treasure

Because our lord Father gave it to us

In pure faith and harmony

The lest we can do is treat it with love

I see a new path…I walk with a skip and a jump

I now know who I am and were I’m gonna be

Just wanted to share with you

A tiny bit of me

Smiles

©Kaila George 2013