From A Child Unworthy Poem by Heather Kemper

Sitting here alone I wonder
why I never feel your love.
Why I never had a daddy,
like the one all girls dream of.
I know you're dissapointed,
and that you'll always be.
You've never tried to forgive or understand,
you didn't want to listen,
especially not to me.
All you saw was betrayal,
nothing but how you hurt.
You forgot about this child's mind,
and what laid inside this heart of dirt.
You forgot the wrongs you had done,
the ones that scared for life.
You just turned your back on this one,
who was struggling to stay alive.
All you see is anger,
at being walked away from in this life.
But are now and will forever be strangers,
you closed your heart to this child who cried.
Daddy I am so sorry,
that you could not understand.
I needed a special hero,
one who would forever hold my hand.
You wouldn't listen or forgive me,
I'll never be enough.
All I wanted in this world,
was my daddy's unconditional love.
I'm never good enough I know this,
never will I be.
I failed as just a child,
worthless is now all I see.
You showed me what you felt,
the anger and disgust in me.
Now you've banished me to hell,
because my daddy's love I'll never see.
One day I hope you may forgive me,
for struggling to stay alive.
For making such an unforgivable mistake,
to disagree instead of die.
I forgive you now and always,
though I'll go on to live in pain.
Knowing I am forever unworthy,
of your love in any way.

Dec.27,1997