From Beginning To The End V: The Inbetween Poem by Brandon Frasure

Where did I lose my sense of purpose?

It seems like I've been wandering this path for ages

Made brick by brick, stone after stone

It's something I've learned to walk alone

Pages of meaningless words provoked by my failure to see

That maybe there's something waiting out there

Waiting at the end of this path that I laid out before me

And sometimes I just want to go back home

Not back to that place where for so long I've felt alone

That old country road that still seems to hold a place

Tightly laced in my very soul, Pack my suitcase

I'm coming home



And with a past that seems to be riddled with sin

All I can think about is what things where like back then

Who was the man in the mirror? Brought down to a meer child again

They break you down and try to build you back up to be the man

That they tried so hard to make us all run in fear from

And for so long all I could do is just stand there

And tell myself 'this just isn't me! '

I just want to find a way back to how things used to be

I can't help but feel like the way I've been living this whole time

Is slowly going to become the death of me



I'm on the ceiling

I'm on the floor

I'm at the window

I'm at the door

And I just keep coming back for more, for more

I'm stuck in everything inbetween here and infinity



Pages on pages, it seems like it has been ages

Since the last time I could go without feeling like

Another crazy bird flying about it's cage

Nowhere to go and no place feels right to me

At times all I can think about is all that has been bouncing around in my head

As you can see this is starting to become something unhealthy



And just another night lying here awake in this bed

All this has been bouncing around inside my head

I think I'm slowly becoming content with staying here forever

What if I never try again, would you put another mark down for all my sins?

And what if I never let myself be moved by anything ever again?

To never believe in anything, Would that truly be something?

A great nothing to believe in



Oh, and you took a part of me

When you left me here swiftly

With ease it seems

You wanted to let go of me

I'd rather stop breathing

Than stand here and see

How everything seems to be changing

Right here at my feet, infront of me

I can't help but feel useless

When I know that all this was so meaningless

Oh, you took the best of me

When you left so easily



Dear old friend, I feel like I'm losing you again

To the changing of the seasons

And to the same old reasons

Why can't we stay here forever and promise never to change?

Do you remember? When we spent those days

Hiding inside tucked away from those past summer rains

Why does it always seem like the best things are always the first to change?



And you took a part of me

When you left me there at the crime scene

With my heart in hand, I could barely stand

A bloody love letter floating in the wind

And I vowed I would never go through that again

I'd rather stop breathing

Than stand here and witness

All these changes that are happening around me

All the memories will never be the same

Oh, you took the best part of me

When you left me so easily



Is it wrong to say that I'm feeling a little lost and confused?

Lately I guess I can say I've been feeling a little blue

Lost and confused to where I'm going and where I wanna be

And it seems like it's been forever since the last time I could stand here

And say that the reflection in that mirror looks a lot like me

In time the face gets older and the body gets weaker with age

I guess there's always a point in our lives

Where the world around us and the people in it have to change

In a sense we're all just birds in a cage

Waiting to be set free

I guess in the end it was meant to be this way

Just a bird in a cage waiting for it's chance

To get up and just fly away