Fundamental Of Liar Chapter Cxxviii: Half Heart Poem by Maria Sudibyo

I know but I don't understand
I see but I can't connect with it
I think but I don't process it
I feel but I don't deepen it
I follow but I don't believe it
I say but I don't mean it
I experience but I don't contemplate it
I do but I don't have the reason
I choose but there is no freedom
I want but I don't really desire
I hear but it goes like the wind
I eat but I don't taste it
I play but I don't enjoy it
I laugh but it doesn't come from my heart
I seek but I fear about what I found
I promise but it only lies inside