Goodbye Poem by HannahJane Brazier

I can’t wait for you to leave because I can’t stand you staring down at me anymore. I dream about watching you walk out that door. Everyday it seems that my dream will come true but you seem to never move. I try to get away but I can’t leave because there are so many things left for me to do, but you never walk out because you don’t care about my life.

Please stop yelling because I don’t think that I can take the noise anymore. I can’t understand the meaning of what you say. There’s nothing more I can do. I might write this for you to read but I bet you wont even realise that it is about you and all you do and say. When you look in the mirror what do you see because I bet it’s not what I see. I hope one day you realise what you have done but it will be too late then. I wont be around but what you did will.

I only thought of what you call me and I’m not strong enough. Other people will say that I am emotional but what do they know. If they had to live with you they would feel the same. You are a master at breaking people and you have had lots of practise doing it.

So what do you think of this my first memory is of you calling me fat I was about six. Ten years later and your still the same.

I am sure that it wont stop now. When will something change because you can’t hide behind your parents forever. They try to protect you from you but they can’t help you anymore. Now they can’t help me either because now it’s too late. I am gone away from my hell where I can be me and believe that I am beautiful. That’s all I wanted to be just to hear you say that one word, because you always took that away from me.

So well done you have won yourself a life I hope you enjoyed it. I hope the next victim will be stronger. So when you look in the mirror now what do you see. I bet nothing wrong as always but I would hope that for once you would see what I see and that would make you change. I guess that’s too much to ask of you.

Will you even cry or will you just laugh like you always do?

Will you get angry and blame me for being selfish when all I want is for you to be better?

So what will it be?

Me or you.