Have To But Can'T Let Go. Poem by jasmin santana

Catch me im falling.
Watch me im drowning.
Listen to my voice can you hear my stutters?
Here my tears meet my eyes.
And I begin to doubt myself.
Wondering what you see will always remain a mystery.
I've wondered how i ever lived not knowing you because now i can't picture myself without you.
You've brought happiness but pain.
It seems like you have cut me like razors.
I'm bleeding but still living.
I don't know if i can let go without losing who I am too.
Your a mystery unpredictable but yet I know you so well.
I don't know your reactions and I can't describe you but I know you so well like a book.
You know me better than anyone else.
Your easy to talk to.
But all the things you do make me hate you,
But the thing I hate the most is that I don't hate you at all.
I will have to wait untill its my turn to let you know and this time i won't shy away but instead i will embrace it and be confident without caring if you feel the same.