Honesty Poem by Anita Khelawan

My grandmother said that a liar is a thief and thieves are murderers
My father told me he hated liars
And I said no matter what always tell me the truth
Answer me this… why would you think I'd lie to you
I have nothing profound to say
All I have to give is my utmost honesty

I have no one to vent to
I'm embarrassed by this white residue
You're fed up and there's nothing I could do
I thought that would be my signal to stop love you
But I guess such factor has become untrue

I wanted to grow old with you
I should have spoken up when you thought I've done you wrong instead of agreeing with you
I only did it because I wanted us to have happy moments rather than argue
I've probably contradicted myself
Sheldon I really need your love, attention and some help
How can I just leave you alone?
When all I ever wanted to be your queen and sit on your throne

Sheldon from you, I wanted stability
And you did till now because you just want to leave
I wanted to have your babies
So that in the event that you chose to go I'd let you go freely (one of my many reasons)
Because no matter what I'd always have a part of you with me

So many times you said that I should move on
And here I am thinking that if ever it was to happen I'll be strong
It's the hardest thing I have to do
When I'm still very much in love with you
I mean just yesterday you I actually spoke to your mom
Everything we did never felt so wrong

You said I should socialize
But I don't want to because I have to put on a fake smile
The reality is I'm broken inside
Please consider me I don't want to cry

In my mind I'm thinking when 2013 comes around I'd greeting you happy New Year
And maybe you'll want to work things out as if there was something in the air
But I don't know if four days are too late
Can you call us truce and give me a clean slate?
Why must I love you like this
Why should you give on me and call us quits
Maybe we should have a love like Rihanna and Chris
Minus the bruises and lixx
Better yet I'll be Mila and you'll be Ashton
Why can't you realize we're a match made in heaven?

My emphasis would be we keep coming back because of love
Just like ‘No Strings Attached, Friends with Benefits but mainly A lot like Love'
I envy married couples and hope we'll be one of them one day
Till death do us part… you'll stay and I'll never go a stray

For 2013 why can't we start a new?
You loving me and I you
Just you and I till the end of time
I'll say forever yours and you forever mine