I Am Lonely Too Poem by Vision Ghost

Is there someone else in the dark to whom; I can talk to
As I’ve only tried so hard, to personify what I feel is true
Maybe if we remained here for a little while, for company
Because no one here seems to understand, my complexity

Sat with my drink in hand, watching so many faces express
Ways and delays of just motions set, in something timeless
I can only observe well, but seem to fall at the final hurdle
To grasp the connection, by the thread to which is invisible

Longing for her arms, and enhancing the sorrow within me
For the warmth of humanity, has escaped me and I can’t see
How I can get it back, as I’ve been this way for so very long
These crowds walk past as if I am a pillar, but not at all strong

Endless and fateful cruelties, playing out their serenades here
I can understand most things, but can’t tolerate the highest fear
That I might just be this way forever, as just another lonely soul
Finally knowing my direction, but empty stadiums see my goal

Is it something in me that always, ends the day in this misery?
If you ever asked me to be myself, I wouldn’t know how to be
So many passages and times encountered, but nothing absolute
Trapped by the fear of death, I can hold the gun but can’t shoot

Sitting at my place I look out, as through the bars of my cage
And I feel the insanity, starting to build in me to a near rage
Incomprehensive in this reality, that I cannot be the only one
Have I frightened away, anyone else that came close now gone?

Is a natural instinct for you people, found in such hostilities?
Towards something or someone, who is of differing abilities?
So that when I can see into your hearts, you snap them shut
In such a violent fashion, that I believe it’s my heart that is cut

Maybe I have faded away, from the perspective of human kind
Nothing but what I can do, to speak to the world from my mind
In the very hopes that a friend, is here with me and sees this too
As a hand upon my shoulder, could mean to me something true