I Come Back To Myself Slowly Poem by Shalom Freedman

I COME BACK TO MYSELF SLOWLY


I come back to myself slowly
I have been away for a time
To another part of my self
I do not want to be at all-
It is the part of Despair and Fear and Loss of Hope
And guilt over my own unworthiness-
I have come back to myself a bit
I am sort of alright
There is not around me all this weight and cloud and all this heavy dragging me down-
I am calmer now.

I say I am coming back to my better self
I hope so
I do feel better-
But I know Life and the Other Self wait for me and will find me again-
Up and down, over and out, all around
The human being is a succession of his own continually conflicting selves.