I said I need to find myself. I need to get what's mine
I said I'd see you again somehow sometime
But it kills me knowing that I might have told a lie
I took one last look at my family and then I said goodbye
I took a seat on the bus and for the first time in my life I cried
Now I'm a lone wolf running through a war zone
All I think about is how much I miss home
I'm just a solder who is battling his demons
I am a solder lacking something to believe in
I am covered in mud the sun is gleaming in my eye
I put my life on the line because I'm ready to die
But I keep fighting and I don’t even know why
I've got so many battle scars I couldn't cry if I tried
If you look into my eyes you'll see a tortured soul
I take it day by day and complete another mission that seems to lack a goal
Fighting for an unknown cause can seem tedious at times
I'm just a solder who is fighting behind enemy lines
I run and take cover from all of the chaos
Hoping one day all of this fighting might pay off
Each time I shoot my gun a piece of me is lost
I keep fighting I keep hurting but I don’t have a choice
All these orders do is just take away my voice
So I do what I can I fight for freedom
And I fight for what I feel is right to believe in
But I feel like I'm trapped guns pointed at my back
Strange people wearing black masks I am under attack
I can't understand them but I think I'm a prisoner of war
They blindfold me and walk me to a door
For some reason I felt Id been there before
I punch them in the face so I have time to run away
I take my billfold of and I make my escape
I keep on running I won't stop to get until I get to base
My comrades knew I'd been through hell when they saw my face
I walked inside and I felt at home I no longer felt alone
But within about 10 hours it was time to go
I lost all hope I cant fight anymore
I dropp to my knees and I fall on the floor
The awful masked enemy picked me up
They put on my blindfold and they put me in cuffs
As I waked across the unfamiliar territory
I looked back at my life I had no idea it could get this gory
I just want to talk to you cant you speak English
They replied in a strange unfamiliar language
Then I accepted death and then I died
It felt as good as the last time I cried
I had experienced death and birth and thought of them separately
And all of the sudden a realized the were just one entity
I knew it was a universal unit despite what I've been told
The enemies took off their blindfolds and my blood ran cold
I looked at my enemy but to my surprise
I was looking right into my mother and my father's eyes
I felt so alive that I started to cry because I figured out why I was dyeing inside
The whole time we were fighting when we on the same side
We were a universal unit I felt my heat open wide
I saw them again I did not lie
I held my family in my arms and for the first time in my life I cried
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem