I'D Do This No More (Anorexia/Bulimia) Poem by Silence Dogood

Today I decided it was just too much.
Today It just wasn't enough.
Today was the first of all my lies.
Just two simple words; Im fine.
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I went to the washroom.
All my friends unaware.
No one notices how long.
Not one of them cares.

I leaned over the toilet.
Got rid of the pain.
The impefections.
That flow in my veins.

I wiped my mouth clean.
Walked right out the door.
Promising myself.
I'd do this no more.

And into class I went as usual.
No one suspected a thing.
They continued to talk and do their work.
Waiting for the bell to ring.

I got home tired.
Lifeless and sick.
Wondering how.
Life is a gift.

My mother yelled.
And screamed my name.
And there I was.
Not the same.

I went up to my room.
Never saying a word.
Layed down on my bed.
While my stomach churled.

An unknown silence.
Crept up to me.
As my head fell down.
And began to bleed.

I woke up to voices.
Same as before.
Remembering how.
I'd do this no more.
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Today I decided it was just too much.
Today It just wasn't enough.
Today was the first of all my lies.
Just two simple words; Im fine.