I Don'T Understand Poem by E. Pendragon

Your're the one that is meant to understand,
My worries, my strifes and fears,
But your words of solace fall shallow on my ears,
To madden my grief so I slowly drown in tears,

I am ill, my heart is sickened black,
Loneliness breeds my flaming insanity,
which comes and goes like flickering flames,
If you had heard between my words, would understand me? ,

Love proclaimed to cure all hurt, all ills,
Then how is it I am left misunderstood, in pain? ,
I am wounded and now dangerous with my cutting words,
Anger and tongue forged as hilt and blade to maim,

You can never save me, no matter how much you love,
I built those diamond walls always so beautiful and cold,
To preserve and to protect so I couldn't hear you,
So you couldn't understand me, even when you were told,

I am sorry my love that you can not understand,
I am sorry I sort to wash you in my all of my pain,
I am sorry I was selfish, with my wanton need,
My lonely soul, its true, cries even to drown the rain,

I only sort the comfort that I thought entitled to me,
And shield myself in feelings that were rich and grand,
You cannot save me, I must grow my own white wings,
I am sorry, I realise now, it was me who did not understand.