I'Ll Survive With The Guilt Of Breaking My Own Heart Poem by urvashi rasaily

I tried to recollect the pieces of the broken heart which I gave to you but the more I tried to fix it the more it hurts. Now that I'm hurt these tears does not seems to stop and you tell me not to cry……. How can I stop these tears which have made its way out directly from the broken walls of my emotions? Why don't you try to understand the unspoken words these falling tears are saying? Instead of making it stop why don't you hug me and love me like the way you used to. Why don't you hold me in your arms and make me fall asleep for a while? Why don't you show me some kindness and pretend for a little while like the way you used to. Yes, I want you to pretend for a while because I badly need you here. Make me feel good like the way you used to. Why don't you try to hurt me once again and make this heart understand that you don't love it anymore because this damn heart still loves you more than it loves me!

I wish if I could say that it was your fault for making me fall for you but I know that you never told me to fall for you it was my stupid decision to fall in love with a person like you. I knew that you were pretending but still I loved you…………. I knew I was nothing but the moment that you passed through but though I loved you. I knew that one day you'll break my heart into pieces but though I gave it to you. And now that it's already hurt I don't have anything to do except cry and let myself drowned in my own tears.

I wish if I could cry and erase your name out of my heart, I wish if I could forget the memories which makes me feel so bad, I wish if I could start all over again without you but this wish can never come true………..and I know that I will have to survive with the pain of not having you by my side with the guilt of breaking my own heart.