I'M Ok Poem by Cami Cates

I don’t understand
And it doesn’t make sense
But my emotions seem
To always be on the fence

When around friends
I can laugh and smile
But all alone I feel
Like a scared child

My heart starts pounding
And thoughts start racing
My body shakes
And I start pacing

When people ask
I’m happy and cool
But as I look back
I feel more like a fool

I don’t know why
I can’t get the words to say
That something’s wrong
I don’t feel ok

But yet as they ask again
And I smile and nod
That everything’s fine
But that’s a façade

I’m being dramatic
To myself I keep saying
That this pain is a trick
My mind is playing

I question my emotions
Again and again
And until I know the truth
I shall keep them within

So I will keep smiling
And my emotions at bay
Telling everyone
That I am ok.