I'M Still A Bit Confused. Poem by Desiree Whitamore

its not fair to him that
i just don't understand
why i can't be in love with both of you.

he tries making sense
while i sit up on that fence
doing what you always told me not to do.

i can't realize
that he's not on my mind
i try to fake the smile thats burning up my face.

he says i love you
and i know its always true
but i can't decide how to get out of this place.

and heres another letter
that i'm writing to you
i've got my foot in my mouth
and i'm twisting the truth
cause i know how happy it'd make you if i cried.


but i miss the way you made me feel
when ever i failed
and when life gets me down
and he never bails
but i know that i can't make it work this time.

i love you the way he loves me
its you i'm becoming.
i make him wait the way you made me wait

and i say that i'm sorry
i hate apologizing
and i get why you never could really change.

i know that you don't care for me
half as much as he does
but when you said you meant it, i know you did
and i'm so worn out with all of this
i just want you and i can't tell him that.