I Must Change Poem by Drasicanawhocius

I am here for you,
At all times in this life!
Your pain is my pain,
We can conquer this strife!

I want no reward,
I'm present and loving.
This is me being myself,
To be so forthcoming.

I know what you deal with
is undeniably tough.
Even more the the constant let downs
of my unbound trust?

Sometimes I wonder,
Why give a damn about you.
For as selfless as I am,
I must consider me too.

I've lent my insight,
My heart,
Especially concern.
I wanted to be there,
To help,
Now my insides burn.

I'm hurting so badly,
Being crushed by this pain.
But where have you gone?
...
You no longer remain.

I've been used,
I've been tricked,
Tossed aside more than I should.
To all that have crossed me,
You've done me no good.

I get hurt, I can feel,
I'm still human, you know.
When I'm in need of a friend,
I have nowhere to go.

You're no better than the rest,
To leave me all alone.
I thought you were different,
But here I am on my own.

My willingness to forgive,
Does not mean I forgot.
All these emotions
Silenced,
May boil out the pot.

What I've described,
It is horrid,
My loop of a fall.
Just add more pain,
Less tolerance,
I can no longer stand tall.

I must change all of this,
Hidden deep within.
I shall fight my way out,
Letting no others in.

This pain, it's a burden,
I must help my Self.
Life has taught me one thing,
Don't trust someone else.

'So long', I'll say,
To this unbearable trance;
To all that never bothered,
Allowing me my own chance.