I Still Love You Poem by Stephanie Campos

I cant do it; I've tried and I've tried.
I cant do a thing without you by my side.
I lie to myself and say I'm better off alone
But I'm still waiting, anxiously, all day by the phone.
I'm waiting for a text, for a call, anything,
Just to know that I'm not the only one aching.

I dont want to admit to you that I give in;
That you've become my only way of living and breathing.
Bags under my eyes, a frown on my face;
I've shown you that I love you in so many ways.

I dont know why I did it, to be honest with you.
I've wanted to for so long, since November 22.
I just didnt know how or what I would say.
So it just lingered in my head every single day.

I hate it when my face is touched because I feel like I dont have control.
I don't like it when I'm yelled at because I feel so insecure.
Don't lecture me in public. I'm really sensitive.
Don't put me on the spotlight. It makes me feel captive.

I laugh at your jokes, even when I dont have a clue
And pretend to like everything that you do.
Because if I dont do it, I'm shot down by you.
You laugh at me, joke, and make fun of me, too.

You make me close up and not want to share.
Sometimes you just treat me so unfair.
I try to talk to you and you make a face to be funny.
I ask you over and over, then you answer all loudly.

We can't have a conversation or sit down and just have fun.
I just need to talk like beings. Act normal; for just once.
I'm looking at your christmas present. I wrapped it once again.
When should i give it to you? I really dont know when;

When I'll see you, that is. It has been so long,
Or at least thats what it feels like. I'm trying to be strong
Because I miss you with a passion. You're all i have now.
But how to tell you that. I really don't know how.

How do I tell you that I made a mistake?
That I've gotten into something that I really just cant take?
How do I purpose that you change your ways, as I change mine
Just so I don't have to lie and say that I'm just fine?

Because I give up, I give in, I'm done.
I cant do this alone. Baby, you're the one.