I Will Not Weep Poem by Ashley Joyce Forbus

I am tired and I am beat
But no, I will not weep
These troubles i am greeting
This mountain that looks too steep
I will not beat myself up any longer
I sit all day long, thinking...
Thinking about thinking
Do i not think enough?
Do I think too much?
Everything is an endless circle
A circle, a swirl of possibilities
A circle, a spiral of disappointments
Everything starts coming together
Just to fall into a million more pieces
The cycle never ends
Why does God fill our heads with so many emotions?
You can’t have Love without pain
You can’t succeed without failures
Everything is a test
I need to rest
My mind is a tangled mess!
Has anyone really ever found their selves?
If so, please tell me how you passed that test!
You think you know someone but you don’t
you think you know yourself but you don’t
I can’t breathe, I can’t stop thinking, I can’t stop running
I just can’t go any farther
No! I can take on more
I have to keep breathing
I have to keep running
Breathing to stay alive
Running till i find my way
The hurt i feel inside
The pain i cannot hide
I am hurt and i am beat
But no sir i will not weep!