I Wish I Was Better Before Poem by VaRuN JaIn

If this love, I wish I was better before
If it’s not then I don’t wanna experience it anymore
Why do someone takes over to you
And all my feeling turn into blue
All time I wonder how did this happen
The thing she used is a silent weapon
Tears want to fall laugh seems to be gone
Now no more chat n no talk on the phone
Still we talk but its like never before
As husband n wife meet after the divorce
silence grows now distance increased
thoughts r same but heart beats freeze
She is changed n so do I,
So formally we say hi and bi
Sitting in crowd and feeling alone
All my sense seems to be gone
The nights are long like never before
And dreams r now seems to be sore
Walking on the road with confused thought
I was searching but don’t knew what is lost
I sat alone with closed eyes for a while
Knowing she is happy, that bring me smile
As the day went one by one
all my feeling seems to done
I no more the person I used to be
I will always try to regain feelings in me