I Wish They Knew Poem by Nur Anis Harliani

How I tried hiding from the world
Sitting up here alone
Still, I feel far more exposed
And under the gloomy heaven
There is no comfort
For the cloud is mocking me
Deep within
The hope withers.

As I clasp my hands and
Forming a prayer, for help
With eyes tightly shut
Still, I failed
For salty tears keep flowing
O I wish they knew
My soul is in pieces.

I wish they knew
The new suit suffocates me
Thus breathless I be
"Help me…"
My lips softly whisper
But none came to me
As I drown in misery.

Around me, I hear with my ears
The buzzing of bees
Shouting, questioning left and right
Just like them
In the small town down there
O how I wish they knew.

From this hill, I see below me
The sea of green trees
That for them is lush but
For me is dull
And I wish they knew how the trees
Began towering over me menacingly
With finger-like branches
Trying to drag me deeper and deeper
And deeper.

As I bow in sorrow
Begging for mercy
In my pockets
I feel, the heaviness of my sins
Like those pebbles
O I wish they knew
How I fear the foreboding future.

I wish they knew
Sometimes I saw myself
Like the grass
Tiny unlike the big bushes
Yet both are motionless
Everywhere
Yet nowhere.

I wish they knew
How around me the world is gray
And the wind is bitter
For me
Those light on the horizon
Though was blinding
Now is dimming
Swallowed by the dark and
Forever unreachable.


As the gray sky overshadowed that light
And tiredness creeping inside
The cold bites as I stand
Smoothing the creases
On my suit
And the sock is rough
Prickling my skin
Adorning the mask
I feel no smile
Still
I wish they knew
Hopelessness if me
Outside the rich live
Inside the poor died.