Inner You Poem by Lesa MRK

Sometimes I watch you,
Just out of the corner of my eye,
And I'm amazed-
Somehow you never see me cry.
Sometimes I try talking to you,
But you only walk away.
Yet when I try to leave you,
You beg me to stay.

I can't understand you-
What do you have hidden beneath that mask?
You won't answer, whenever I ask.
I try to look deep,
Within the shadows of your eyes,
Try to find the inner you,
Where all your secrets lie.

There's a wall between us-
You're pushing me far away.
What are the feelings inside you?
What are you trying to say?
How can I go on pretending,
When everything is ending?
If I could only see,
Just what it is you are trying to be.

Sometimes I feel you care,
And everything seems so right.
Then suddenly it happens-
And where are you hiding tonight?
I think you need me,
To help you on your way.
But how can I help you,
When your true self I cannot find?
I know you care,
But you are making yourself go blind.

I don't mean to hurt you-
I don't want to be unkind.
You won't lose yourself,
In chains you feel might bind.
It's almost an illusion,
This life of ours we lead.
Can't we find reality,
In what life truly means?

I want no more fairytales-
No more fantasies.
Can't it be true-
Is there any reality?

(1987)