I can remember when I was so protective of my son
He had to be within my sight 24/7 when just a child
He was all that I have, he was and still is my world
I gave birth to him, he was my reason to live
I had prayed...yes I had...to the lord to have a child
And he gave me my son.....sigh
Brining him up as a single mum was hard,
But then I realized he needed his Dad
I had been undecided as to if I should let him go....
Should I....or Shouldn't I....sigh...was hard...damn hard
For eleven years he was mine, loved and cherished every day of his life
The hardest thing I have ever done was let him go to live with his dad
Hurt beyound anything I have ever felt....he was not home with me
He was with his father...doing gawd knows what....sigh...I just didnt know anymore
But his father is a good man...I'm not saying he is not....no far from it....smiles
He spoilt him rotten, he could get what I could not give...all those luxerys children expect
We both love him to death...I am the hard parent his father the softy...smiles
Since leaving home he as done things I was protecting him from...
And should I lose him once again to a system thats gone bad....I dont know what to do
He is and will ever be my world and his fathers too.....but what can we do....sigh
We both have talked into the long hours of the night going over things we could of done
Things that could of been....sigh....just at a loss really I am...smiles
But life goes on, damn it hurts... but hell....living and breathing is gonna be hard
Just knowing he may be gone for a long while....I know we have to wait and see...
Its the waiting thats killing me....gah....enough said....you pick up what I have just said
Life suks but we have to live...gawd its hard
So peps if I have to come on to have time just to get away for a few hours...give me break
Stop bickering amongest yourself....we have hidden agendas...I'm here to write
What are you here for.....sigh....said my 10cents worth but who really cares right...
Sorry Just being a emo cow right now...so shoot me...gah
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem