Inside It Waits And Hides Poem by Ryin Ramsey

I try so hard to keep smiling,
But I'm fed up, tired of trying,
The pain overwhelms, inside I'm dying,
For I'm growing up too fast,
I can hardly remember my past,
The good time's forever left behind,
The bad time's forever trapped in mind,
Thinking about myself,
for i am slowly losing health,
i have so many dreams I've woke up on,
realizing that i really don't want to wake up,
for my pain hides,
waiting deep inside,
thinking of my life, it makes me cry
BUT I DO NOT WISH TO DIE
i have thought of it many times,
then i see the Beauty and joy of life,
I think a lot, a lot means twice,
I think of family mostly my Mom,